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Painflower

by Turtle Grenade

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1.
Painflower 02:43
This pain is soft this pain is blooming a tender flower a large tower of immense fragility I hold you close I smell your neck try to forget it all in you and though it works and though I love you I still carry so much pain This pain is soft this pain blooming Blooming Chardonnay eyes and whiskey skies your pouring body into mine and all the while broken tile missing pieces I can't find and though the taste of your skin does sedate me I almost do feel good I am convinced quite honestly that nothing ever really could This pain is soft this pain is blooming a tender flower a large tower of immense fragility I feel it all inside my bones the coming storms the coming storms it is a knowledge in my body and it's blooming Blooming
2.
I woke up this morning bitchy and indignant at the weather I am such a little kid when will I grow up? Maybe never I am codependent, condescending trying to be clever at least I have my self-esteem Oh wait, that's fucked up forever Oh yeah it's gone so pass me that there gun just put me in a coffin and send me out to sea I don't want to be if being's misery so long I am so ready so pass me that machete I stayed in my room all summer I have a crush on a skinny drummer in the autumn got a part-time job as a plumber I said, I quit, I'm sick of this shit If you knock me down I don't soon recover No, I just lay there like a bummer Everything I know I learned it from my brothers My favorite character is homestead runner and this city, this city knows what it does to me this city, this city knows what it does this city, this city, is sinking into me this city, this city is sinking I went to Oregon 'cause I felt nothing now I feel nothing in Oregon I laid in a rose garden with a stranger looked into his beautiful eyes I felt nothing I went to the ledge of a cliff to feel danger I leaned in closer and I felt nothing, nothing, nothing Nothing, nothing, nothing I woke up this morning bitchy and indignant at the weather I am such a little kid when will I grow up? Maybe never
3.
PMS Blues! 01:31
I wanna have sex I wanna have cake I wanna have sex with a cake I wanna slice its body open and lick all of the frosting off I wanna rub myself all over it until all the creams in both of us come out I wanna cry I wanna go to sleep I wanna eat meat even though I don't eat meat ''What the hell is wrong with you,'' you might say, I've got the pussy-bleeding blues today I wanna take everyone who's ever wronged me I wanna stick them in a room with a flesh-eating zombie I wanna punch them really hard and give them lots and lots of disses!.. ..and then I want to bring them food and give them lots and lots of kisses I wanna SCREAM I wanna just laugh I wanna chop a bunch of nazis heads in half Oh, but most of all I want this fucking pain in my uterus, most of all I want this fucking pain in my uterus to pass
4.
Snow/summer 02:59
Cake-sniffing Bone-ripping Nervous and coy play the keys like a toy Chronic arthritis in your left hand Amethyst and rosemary and arabic sand you were the fire I burned my hand Winter is falling into my car seat pull me under knock me to sleep Coffee on the road makes me carsick driving in the snow makes me carsick 'Cause I can't forgive you for the things that you have not apologized for and I can't let you out if you refuse, if you refuse to see the door And you blew in me like summer breeze Green eyes blinking black eyes twitching brown eyes wincing blue eyes winking
5.
Never forgot the things you said to me on that new year's eve before you started to snore never forgot the way you looked at me before you started to scream and put a hole through the door never forgot how the staircase shook how the buildings looked before they fell to the floor never forgot even though you did even though you think it never happened at all I never realized that the tears in your eyes they were coming from skies they were coming from skies and you did so much talking and even the sadness even though you were not awake like pouring rain, went and at all fell from the sky, fell from the sky even though your eyes I never knew, never knew, were shut never knew like doors laughing at twins, laughing at twins laughing at twins And even though that night you got too drunk you got so drunk you couldn't tell anymore Never forgot that you got so drunk yes you got so drunk, you couldn't tell anymore Yeah you got so lost, you got so lost you got so lost and you realized you weren't even drunk No, the madness in your mind was not substance-induced No you realized as you lied on the grass that everything everything was shit everything was shit everything was shit everything was shit and we both laughed at twins and we both laughed at twins and we both laughed at twins and we both laughed at twins and we both laughed at twins
6.
Venice 02:53
When the evening defeated pins its sun against the window panes bleeding orange like a tangerine's veins pulsing in my eyes like alien brains But to get up and face the day without complaints without figure skates Where the hell am I now? Venice is humid and strange Vincent is humorous and strange he never said so but I knew he occupied the same awful place I did where black shines brighter than red Pulsating pain peeling paper stock He burned a hole into my sock he felt so bad he never smoked again except the rest of that cigarette on that dock the gross green water of this city was the only thing that could calm scared minds like ours Everyone said don't jump in that's nasty Till we jumped in and his hair turned blacker than I ever thought it could and in the dim night I swam back toward the wall feeling like I had finally done something I loved in my life we dried off we went to clubs and for a moment we sang and danced and forgot about the demons waiting in our beds we balanced cups on our heads and painted on canvas

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Thanks to Evan Mui for mastering this EP, and to everyone who has supported me and my music.

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released April 24, 2020

Song writing, performances: Turtle Grenade (Denise G)
Mixing: Turtle Grenade
Mastering: Evan Mui
Album art: Turtle Grenade

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