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Painflower
02:43
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This pain is soft
this pain is blooming
a tender flower
a large tower of immense fragility
I hold you close
I smell your neck
try to forget it all in you
and though it works
and though I love you
I still carry so much pain
This pain is soft
this pain blooming
Blooming
Chardonnay eyes
and whiskey skies
your pouring body into mine
and all the while
broken tile
missing pieces I can't find
and though the taste of your skin does sedate me
I almost do feel good
I am convinced
quite honestly
that nothing ever really could
This pain is soft
this pain is blooming
a tender flower
a large tower of immense fragility
I feel it all inside my bones
the coming storms
the coming storms
it is a knowledge in my body
and it's blooming
Blooming
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I woke up this morning bitchy and indignant at the weather
I am such a little kid
when will I grow up?
Maybe never
I am codependent, condescending
trying to be clever
at least I have my self-esteem
Oh wait, that's fucked up forever
Oh yeah it's gone
so pass me that there gun
just put me in a coffin
and send me out to sea
I don't want to be
if being's misery
so long I am so ready
so pass me that machete
I stayed in my room all summer
I have a crush on a skinny drummer
in the autumn got a part-time job as a plumber
I said, I quit, I'm sick of this shit
If you knock me down I don't soon recover
No, I just lay there like a bummer
Everything I know I learned it from my brothers
My favorite character is homestead runner
and this city, this city
knows what it does to me
this city, this city
knows what it does
this city, this city,
is sinking into me
this city, this city
is sinking
I went to Oregon 'cause I felt nothing
now I feel nothing in Oregon
I laid in a rose garden with a stranger
looked into his beautiful eyes I felt nothing
I went to the ledge of a cliff to feel danger
I leaned in closer and I felt nothing, nothing, nothing
Nothing, nothing, nothing
I woke up this morning bitchy and indignant at the weather
I am such a little kid
when will I grow up?
Maybe never
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PMS Blues!
01:31
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I wanna have sex
I wanna have cake
I wanna have sex with a cake
I wanna slice its body open and lick all of the frosting off
I wanna rub myself all over it until
all the creams in both of us come out
I wanna cry
I wanna go to sleep
I wanna eat meat
even though I don't eat meat
''What the hell is wrong with you,'' you might say,
I've got the pussy-bleeding blues today
I wanna take everyone who's ever wronged me
I wanna stick them in a room with a flesh-eating zombie
I wanna punch them really hard and give them lots and lots of disses!..
..and then I want to bring them food and give them lots and lots of kisses
I wanna SCREAM
I wanna just laugh
I wanna chop a bunch of nazis heads in half
Oh, but most of all I want this fucking pain in my uterus,
most of all I want this fucking pain in my uterus to pass
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Snow/summer
02:59
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Cake-sniffing
Bone-ripping
Nervous and coy
play the keys like a toy
Chronic arthritis in your left hand
Amethyst and rosemary and arabic sand
you were the fire
I burned my hand
Winter is falling into my car seat
pull me under
knock me to sleep
Coffee on the road
makes me carsick
driving in the snow
makes me carsick
'Cause I can't forgive you for the things
that you have not apologized for
and I can't let you out
if you refuse,
if you refuse to see the door
And you blew in me like summer breeze
Green eyes blinking
black eyes twitching
brown eyes wincing
blue eyes winking
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Laughing at twins
02:50
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Never forgot the things you said to me on that new year's eve
before you started to snore
never forgot the way you looked at me
before you started to scream and put a hole through the door
never forgot how the staircase shook
how the buildings looked
before they fell to the floor
never forgot even though you did
even though you think
it never happened at all
I never realized that the tears in your eyes
they were coming from skies
they were coming from skies
and you did so much talking and even the sadness
even though you were not awake like pouring rain, went and
at all fell from the sky, fell from the sky
even though your eyes I never knew, never knew,
were shut never knew
like doors laughing at twins, laughing at twins
laughing at twins
And even though that night you got too drunk
you got so drunk
you couldn't tell anymore
Never forgot that you got so drunk
yes you got so drunk, you couldn't tell anymore
Yeah you got so lost, you got so lost
you got so lost
and you realized you weren't even drunk
No, the madness in your mind was not substance-induced
No you realized
as you lied on the grass
that everything
everything was shit
everything was shit
everything was shit
everything was shit
and we both laughed at twins
and we both laughed at twins
and we both laughed at twins
and we both laughed at twins
and we both laughed at twins
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6. |
Venice
02:53
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When the evening
defeated
pins its sun against the window panes
bleeding orange like a tangerine's veins
pulsing in my eyes like alien brains
But to get up and face the day
without complaints
without figure skates
Where the hell am I now?
Venice is humid and strange
Vincent is humorous and strange
he never said so
but I knew he occupied the same awful place I did
where black shines brighter than red
Pulsating pain
peeling paper stock
He burned a hole into my sock
he felt so bad he never smoked again
except the rest of that cigarette on that dock
the gross green water of this city
was the only thing that could calm scared minds like ours
Everyone said
don't jump in
that's nasty
Till we jumped in
and his hair turned blacker than I ever thought it could
and in the dim night
I swam back toward the wall
feeling like I had finally done something I loved in my life
we dried off
we went to clubs
and for a moment we sang and danced
and forgot about the demons waiting in our beds
we balanced cups on our heads
and painted on canvas
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